Sometimes, I will think…what I actually want in Aikido? Actually I don really know…
Should I participate while I having so many assignment? Should I attend while the journey is so far from my place? Should I train while I do not have a partner with me? Should I?
Kind of confuse and lonely…what I want?
Although the reason I stay in Aikido is already changed…but am I actually suitable in this?
I found some sincere people in Aikido. I found some happiness in Aikido. And I found somethg which I can’t get out there.
I saw some ppl really committed in Aikido. I can’t figure out how much they love Aikido…somehow can say is endless…
What am I if compare with them? A blur and stupid aikidoka? What had I promise before? Can I really do something for Aikido?
I am too tiny, I think…how long can I hold on? After my first grading in Shudokan? Or months? Years? Or forever?
Why I always worry this and that? Where is the confident that I should have as an aikidoka? Years…till now I still dono where is it…What the hell problem I have?!
Can anyone tell me?
Should I participate while I having so many assignment? Should I attend while the journey is so far from my place? Should I train while I do not have a partner with me? Should I?
Kind of confuse and lonely…what I want?
Although the reason I stay in Aikido is already changed…but am I actually suitable in this?
I found some sincere people in Aikido. I found some happiness in Aikido. And I found somethg which I can’t get out there.
I saw some ppl really committed in Aikido. I can’t figure out how much they love Aikido…somehow can say is endless…
What am I if compare with them? A blur and stupid aikidoka? What had I promise before? Can I really do something for Aikido?
I am too tiny, I think…how long can I hold on? After my first grading in Shudokan? Or months? Years? Or forever?
Why I always worry this and that? Where is the confident that I should have as an aikidoka? Years…till now I still dono where is it…What the hell problem I have?!
Can anyone tell me?
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